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Hey gang.
Long time, no see, eh? How about that supertyphoon about to hit Japan? As if they haven't had their share of disasters this decade, oy vey!
Anyway, figured I'd give whoever is still paying attention to this account of mine an update, let y'all know what's been happening and how I'm doing. And as the title says, I'm doing alright. No miracles. No disasters. We still haven't got the house moved yet (but we're bound and determined to get it done before snow flies, gorram it!). But we've gotten a crapton of work done on the home site, with water and two different septic tanks dug in, their corresponding water and septic lines as well as power lines buried, two fence lines post pounded, two building pads packed and completed, horse waterer installed, and a host of miscellaneous tasks that needed to happen before actually moving the house could even be considered. Yeah. We've been busy. We're now within sight of our original goal of moving the house. In the next couple days we move the trailers onto their own pad where they will be winterized for us to live in one more winter. Then we just have to complete the steel crib we will lift it with, finish pounding the piles it will sit on into the ground, and do some bracing inside before we can lift and move. Piece of cake. Once it's moved, we can get back to completing the interior, which is a whole different story. So much work to do. Takes so much time.

As for myself, how I've been doing personally... better. Much better. The supplements have been working like a hotdamn (seriously, if you suffer depression, check out www.truehope.com ). I've been getting out again and spending time with like-minded people. Still struggling with the bad habits I've developed during my depression, but that's been getting better too. All in all, I've seen massive improvements in my overall mood and self-esteem, and I intend to keep making strides down that path. One of the big obstacles I've been fighting to overcome is bad sleep habits. Still struggling with that (can't shut my brain off easily), and it's easy for me to stay up late which always fucks me over in the morning. But I have been seeing improvements there. Just gotta keep fighting. Another obstacle I've been facing is this whole house moving fiasco. We've been working long days trying to get shit done, make progress, often till dark sets in, and it's made it impossible for me to get onto a daily schedule. And I kinda need that. Couple that with the stress incurred by worrying about whether we're actually going to get this house moved this year, plus finance issues, and yeah... it hasn't made it easy to keep my depression at bay. I'm hoping that once we've actually got the house moved or the weather makes it impossible for this year, the stress will abate, and our schedules will settle down and I can actually establish my own personal schedule once again. If that doesn't happen, I'm going to have to figure out a way to make it happen, because I can't keep this up over the winter. I've been managing to keep on keeping on this summer, but winter is always when shit goes downhill for me, and I'm not going back to the way I was. I refuse.

Speaking of winter, I've got plans for how I'm going to manage. My supplement regimen is crucial, I won't survive without it. I've been looking at changing my diet, going without processed carbs. I figure it might help, certainly with getting back in shape, and perhaps with my body's ability to manage my chemical imbalances. I know it won't hurt, it'll just suck until I can get some good recipes and snacks figured out to replace what I eat now. I'm going to look at a tanning membership, keep the natural vitamin D pumping in my veins. I've got an exercise plan worked out, gonna train up over the winter and see how I fare in the Spartan Race. I think if I train hard, I'll kick some ass in that race. Mix in some basic parkour, make it more interesting for myself :P  And, to help with household income and re-develop some of my former independence, I've also been thinking about getting a job being a ski-instructor at the ski-hill. I used to want to do that, but never got to, and now I figure this could be a good opportunity and an excellent way to keep me out of the house (trailer, whatever) and getting fresh air. I used to love skiing, and want to get back into it this winter.
Basically, the plan is to keep myself busy doing things that are good for my body and therefore good for my mind. We'll see how it works out, but I think it's a good plan. Just gotta stick to it.

Oh, and yes, I will be working on getting more photos up here for your enjoyment :D  I've just been in a major creative slump as all of my free time has been consumed by work. Really can't wait for this house-move-nightmare to be over. Just a few more things to do...
  • Mood: Hope
  • Listening to: nothing
  • Reading: An Army At Dawn by Rick Atkinson
  • Watching: Supernatural
  • Playing: minecraft
  • Eating: shepherds pie
  • Drinking: Moonshine
I gazed into the lights tonight. Watched the spirits of animals dash through the waves of green and pink hues, running and dancing through the night sky. I watched as the glow washed back and forth upon the tapestry of stars, like ocean waves upon a dark beach studded with diamonds. I marveled at the beauty that was before me, and my heart reveled in the knowledge that I... am among the fortunate few to bare witness to the Earth singing as the sun reaches out to caress her with its rays in the deep of those intimate hours.

Snuggled into my jacket against the cool night air, I watched the display, and a sense of peace and wonder fell upon me that I had not felt for ages. My thoughts drifted about as my eyes drank it all in like a shipwrecked sailor who'd finally landed and found a fresh spring. I thought of where I'd been, and how I'd gotten to where I am today, and I thought of just where I am now and where I intended to go... and I realized that no matter what I encountered and experienced in my journeys, as long as I was still able to sit a moment and take joy in spectacles such as these, I was going to be alright. I accepted my fate, whatever it may be.

And as I lay upon the hood of my car that had become my throne as I bore witness, I turned my gaze directly above myself only to see...
Those same rays of light I'd been watching had also been dancing above my head the entire time, and were now arranged in the shape of a corona, sharp straight beams that radiated out for miles from this circle above my head...

In that moment, I was a King
  • Mood: Content
  • Reading: An Army At Dawn by Rick Atkinson
  • Watching: Supernatural
  • Drinking: Moonshine
I'm going to miss you.
The fastest mare I ever knew, none could match your agility in the arena, and cows trembled in your presence, knowing they would not out turn or out run you. You and my father were one hell of a team, and I know his heart aches with your absence. And now we lay you to rest in the pasture. Your course has been run. Twenty two years gave you a good life and brought joy to our lives as you bore us into the wind and down the trails we shared. Ever vigilant, you warned us of bears and cougars before we ever knew they were there. You gave us many foals to carry on your legacy of speed and service, and always will they remind us of you.

Let your body rest now as your spirit passes on to the eternal pastures. Classic is waiting for you. I know you won't make him wait too long, you'd only get restless and wild with need to get there. Fast.
  • Mood: Gloomy
  • Listening to: The Driver by Underpony feat. Feather
  • Reading: An Army At Dawn by Rick Atkinson
  • Watching: Kingdom of Heaven
  • Eating: cheese burger
  • Drinking: Growers Cider
My apologies to anyone annoyed by my sudden and massive wave of submissions, but I had the opportunity to use some good wifi and I made as much use of it as I could. You'll just have to deal with it :P
  • Mood: I Have To Pee
  • Listening to: Kyogo
  • Reading: An Army At Dawn by Rick Atkinson
  • Watching: Red Tails
  • Eating: spaghetti
  • Drinking: Coca Cola
Hey gang.
Long time, no see, eh? How about that supertyphoon about to hit Japan? As if they haven't had their share of disasters this decade, oy vey!
Anyway, figured I'd give whoever is still paying attention to this account of mine an update, let y'all know what's been happening and how I'm doing. And as the title says, I'm doing alright. No miracles. No disasters. We still haven't got the house moved yet (but we're bound and determined to get it done before snow flies, gorram it!). But we've gotten a crapton of work done on the home site, with water and two different septic tanks dug in, their corresponding water and septic lines as well as power lines buried, two fence lines post pounded, two building pads packed and completed, horse waterer installed, and a host of miscellaneous tasks that needed to happen before actually moving the house could even be considered. Yeah. We've been busy. We're now within sight of our original goal of moving the house. In the next couple days we move the trailers onto their own pad where they will be winterized for us to live in one more winter. Then we just have to complete the steel crib we will lift it with, finish pounding the piles it will sit on into the ground, and do some bracing inside before we can lift and move. Piece of cake. Once it's moved, we can get back to completing the interior, which is a whole different story. So much work to do. Takes so much time.

As for myself, how I've been doing personally... better. Much better. The supplements have been working like a hotdamn (seriously, if you suffer depression, check out www.truehope.com ). I've been getting out again and spending time with like-minded people. Still struggling with the bad habits I've developed during my depression, but that's been getting better too. All in all, I've seen massive improvements in my overall mood and self-esteem, and I intend to keep making strides down that path. One of the big obstacles I've been fighting to overcome is bad sleep habits. Still struggling with that (can't shut my brain off easily), and it's easy for me to stay up late which always fucks me over in the morning. But I have been seeing improvements there. Just gotta keep fighting. Another obstacle I've been facing is this whole house moving fiasco. We've been working long days trying to get shit done, make progress, often till dark sets in, and it's made it impossible for me to get onto a daily schedule. And I kinda need that. Couple that with the stress incurred by worrying about whether we're actually going to get this house moved this year, plus finance issues, and yeah... it hasn't made it easy to keep my depression at bay. I'm hoping that once we've actually got the house moved or the weather makes it impossible for this year, the stress will abate, and our schedules will settle down and I can actually establish my own personal schedule once again. If that doesn't happen, I'm going to have to figure out a way to make it happen, because I can't keep this up over the winter. I've been managing to keep on keeping on this summer, but winter is always when shit goes downhill for me, and I'm not going back to the way I was. I refuse.

Speaking of winter, I've got plans for how I'm going to manage. My supplement regimen is crucial, I won't survive without it. I've been looking at changing my diet, going without processed carbs. I figure it might help, certainly with getting back in shape, and perhaps with my body's ability to manage my chemical imbalances. I know it won't hurt, it'll just suck until I can get some good recipes and snacks figured out to replace what I eat now. I'm going to look at a tanning membership, keep the natural vitamin D pumping in my veins. I've got an exercise plan worked out, gonna train up over the winter and see how I fare in the Spartan Race. I think if I train hard, I'll kick some ass in that race. Mix in some basic parkour, make it more interesting for myself :P  And, to help with household income and re-develop some of my former independence, I've also been thinking about getting a job being a ski-instructor at the ski-hill. I used to want to do that, but never got to, and now I figure this could be a good opportunity and an excellent way to keep me out of the house (trailer, whatever) and getting fresh air. I used to love skiing, and want to get back into it this winter.
Basically, the plan is to keep myself busy doing things that are good for my body and therefore good for my mind. We'll see how it works out, but I think it's a good plan. Just gotta stick to it.

Oh, and yes, I will be working on getting more photos up here for your enjoyment :D  I've just been in a major creative slump as all of my free time has been consumed by work. Really can't wait for this house-move-nightmare to be over. Just a few more things to do...
  • Mood: Hope
  • Listening to: nothing
  • Reading: An Army At Dawn by Rick Atkinson
  • Watching: Supernatural
  • Playing: minecraft
  • Eating: shepherds pie
  • Drinking: Moonshine

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Amateur artist and photographer, brony, and traceur. Bit of a cowboy, as well as rambler, gypsy, and philosopher. I have a diverse family tree, to say the least, and I think that's where I get my many diverse interests from, but who really knows. Oh, and I play guitar, but don't expect any epic ballads from me, I ain't much of a musician.
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SkyfireDragon Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2014   Artisan Crafter
I am delinquent in my reply’s, but thank you for the Faves! :) (Smile) 
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SkyfireDragon Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2014   Artisan Crafter
Thank you for the Watch, CD! :) (Smile) 
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IvanVladik Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks very much for the fave :-)
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AngeInk Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks very much for the fave! :)
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timjo Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2014  Professional Artisan Crafter
Thanks for the fave! :)
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AngeInk Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks so much for your great show of support! :heart: I hope you continue to enjoy my work :D :hug:
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SkyfireDragon Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014   Artisan Crafter
Happy Birthday, CD! Have your cake and eat it too 
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CanadianDesperado Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
My thanks to you :D Hope you're doing well
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SkyfireDragon Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2014   Artisan Crafter
Your very welcome! :) (Smile)  And I am doing fine, thank you for asking! :) (Smile) I hope thing aren't to bad for you, living out in the sticks again. 
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CanadianDesperado Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Not too bad. About the worst part is, again, the lack of usable internet, but otherwise I far prefer it to living in town.
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