Long time, no see, eh? How about that supertyphoon about to hit Japan? As if they haven't had their share of disasters this decade, oy vey!
Anyway, figured I'd give whoever is still paying attention to this account of mine an update, let y'all know what's been happening and how I'm doing. And as the title says, I'm doing alright. No miracles. No disasters. We still haven't got the house moved yet (but we're bound and determined to get it done before snow flies, gorram it!). But we've gotten a crapton of work done on the home site, with water and two different septic tanks dug in, their corresponding water and septic lines as well as power lines buried, two fence lines post pounded, two building pads packed and completed, horse waterer installed, and a host of miscellaneous tasks that needed to happen before actually moving the house could even be considered. Yeah. We've been busy. We're now within sight of our original goal of moving the house. In the next couple days we move the trailers onto their own pad where they will be winterized for us to live in one more winter. Then we just have to complete the steel crib we will lift it with, finish pounding the piles it will sit on into the ground, and do some bracing inside before we can lift and move. Piece of cake. Once it's moved, we can get back to completing the interior, which is a whole different story. So much work to do. Takes so much time.
As for myself, how I've been doing personally... better. Much better. The supplements have been working like a hotdamn (seriously, if you suffer depression, check out www.truehope.com ). I've been getting out again and spending time with like-minded people. Still struggling with the bad habits I've developed during my depression, but that's been getting better too. All in all, I've seen massive improvements in my overall mood and self-esteem, and I intend to keep making strides down that path. One of the big obstacles I've been fighting to overcome is bad sleep habits. Still struggling with that (can't shut my brain off easily), and it's easy for me to stay up late which always fucks me over in the morning. But I have been seeing improvements there. Just gotta keep fighting. Another obstacle I've been facing is this whole house moving fiasco. We've been working long days trying to get shit done, make progress, often till dark sets in, and it's made it impossible for me to get onto a daily schedule. And I kinda need that. Couple that with the stress incurred by worrying about whether we're actually going to get this house moved this year, plus finance issues, and yeah... it hasn't made it easy to keep my depression at bay. I'm hoping that once we've actually got the house moved or the weather makes it impossible for this year, the stress will abate, and our schedules will settle down and I can actually establish my own personal schedule once again. If that doesn't happen, I'm going to have to figure out a way to make it happen, because I can't keep this up over the winter. I've been managing to keep on keeping on this summer, but winter is always when shit goes downhill for me, and I'm not going back to the way I was. I refuse.
Speaking of winter, I've got plans for how I'm going to manage. My supplement regimen is crucial, I won't survive without it. I've been looking at changing my diet, going without processed carbs. I figure it might help, certainly with getting back in shape, and perhaps with my body's ability to manage my chemical imbalances. I know it won't hurt, it'll just suck until I can get some good recipes and snacks figured out to replace what I eat now. I'm going to look at a tanning membership, keep the natural vitamin D pumping in my veins. I've got an exercise plan worked out, gonna train up over the winter and see how I fare in the Spartan Race. I think if I train hard, I'll kick some ass in that race. Mix in some basic parkour, make it more interesting for myself And, to help with household income and re-develop some of my former independence, I've also been thinking about getting a job being a ski-instructor at the ski-hill. I used to want to do that, but never got to, and now I figure this could be a good opportunity and an excellent way to keep me out of the house (trailer, whatever) and getting fresh air. I used to love skiing, and want to get back into it this winter.
Basically, the plan is to keep myself busy doing things that are good for my body and therefore good for my mind. We'll see how it works out, but I think it's a good plan. Just gotta stick to it.
Oh, and yes, I will be working on getting more photos up here for your enjoyment I've just been in a major creative slump as all of my free time has been consumed by work. Really can't wait for this house-move-nightmare to be over. Just a few more things to do...