So... my last journal entry was a real bummer.
But, things are looking much better now. I've been getting help, and I'm moving back out to the farm to in turn help others. My parents once more need me to help them with some big projects. So that's all good. However, if any of you remember from before, living in rural Alberta comes with some drawbacks, and the biggest one for me is the lack of adequate internet. This means my time here and on other sites will once more be dramatically reduced... not that most of you will notice as it's been some time since I last uploaded anything, but there it is. Hopefully, I can rectify this with some new means of getting internet in the country that previously wasn't available. We shall see. However, this time I will not be living in the same space as my parents. I recently bought, with the aid of my parents, an RV trailer of my own to live in. I'm pretty excited about this, because it now means that apart from utilities and once I've paid back what I now owe my parents (which I should have accomplished by October at the latest), I will be living free of monthly rental fees which are friggin' ridiculous in this town, and I'll actually be able to start saving for some land of my own. I'm really excited about this, as it's always been a distant dream of mine to have a place of my own, free of debt, and this is one big step towards that dream that prior I always thought of as not likely within the next ten years. If I play my cards right and life permits (two big ifs, but still possible) I could have this dream accomplished in five years. We'll see what happens, but it's nice to once more have plans that don't seem entirely impossible.
What all this means is that life isn't so bleak for me anymore, I've got my drive once again. My hope is that getting my shit together will in turn allow me to help others, and that is my goal. It gives me purpose. So, on that note, I leave you with another of my favorite songs from one of my favorite bands.